Sunday 14 June 2015

random

I have met a lot of different people throughout my life. Some of them I barely noticed, some of them I will never forget. 
You know, they say that whenever you get to know someone new, he or she is going to teach you something new. Something you have not been able to do before. Or something you did not know before. I have to admit it has been more than true in my lifeso far. 
It is kind of odd - I mean, isn't it a mere coincidence after all? Like whom do you get to know properly and who just passes by in your life and then disappears forever without even having a chance to lead a real conversation. 

And how come we are attracted both mentally and physically just to certain people? I understand, there is probably not enough time to get to know everyone who walks into your life properly, yet still, why?
I have to say, I do not really understand the science behind it. 
Is it synchronicity? Were we at the same time in the same place? Isn't that more of a coincidence though? And if so, is there still some strange power guiding us towards each other, besides it being an accordance?
I honestly have no idea.

But I know how it feels. How it feels like when you just meet someone completely new, a stranger better to say, and you know right away this person is special. That there is something about him or her you want to get to know closer. Like there is a treasure burried inside them that you want to discover.
So you take the risk and decide to speak to them and suddenly you are best friends or lovers or soulmates, experiencing the same shit in your life at the very particular moment. 
Isn't it just suspicious? Who directs us together? And why?
Are we choosing our paths ourselves or is it path of our own fate that is guiding us?
Is there any chance we can trick or fool fate? Is it really all the little decisions we make during the day that eventually bring us together?
Is it possible, to find out?

I am not sure. We can suppose, suggest, believe, try to explain .. But we will never be able to understand this occurance properly. We will never be sure what is the cause of all this. We can only speculate because we know the effects. Everyone knows them; This weird exciting feeling you get when you see someone like that. And I am not talking love or sexual attraction only, this could apply to any kind of relationship we have in our lives.

Is it really destiny, are we already destined to experience certain things with certain poeple before we even know?

This has been simply bothering for some time now. I have been thinking about everything a lot lately. I have a lot of stressful things going on in my life at the moment. But not only stressful in bad way, there are plenty thigs that are stressing me for the good too.
After all, isn't everything eventually for the good only? I mean, often when I look back at some things that happened to me a few years ago which I thought were the worst things ever, it has always been for the good in the end. I just did not see it right away. I was not able to do so. But I am capable of seeing it now and I have to say, everything shitty has been for the good in my life so far.
It has been lessons I have learned, which I am never going to forget. 
It might have been uneasy back then but it made me the person I am now. It made me stronger, wiser and more experienced, of course. 
Everybody always has to figure out him or herself. There is nothing like tutorial to the least complicated happy life. No such a thing. 
And it is alright, that there is nothing like that.

Saturday 13 June 2015

8th & 9th

I was about to do a tattoo on a girl but unfortunately it did not work out, so I did two on myself instead. 

A little rectangle, which is bolder on one side and an X on my ankle standing for X-BRG, of course. 
I enjoy the simplicity of stick'n'pokes a lot. Maybe way too much, hehe, so far I have done 7 small/tiny tattoos on myself. Well .. the temptation is real, I am telling you. 
Wanna get a pineapple but not sure where though. 
Anyway, have a nice weekend! I am working today, but only till 2pm, which is alright :)





Monday 8 June 2015

TOUCH FIRE

Hey guys! 
News from Berlin are coming, haha. I have my two bestest friends staying over half of the summer, so my room is kinda really crowded now but I like it, because they are fun and cute and cook food and even do the dishes. Wouldn't you just love them too? I do. Hehe.
In other news, doing a lot of stick and pokes lately, met a bunch of cool people thanks to that too.
Got a cool new job at a start-up company, super nice co-workers and free foood! Do you believe that? I do not.
Anyway, life is pretty much cool beanzz again, so I hope it will last a little!
Have a great week!




Saturday 30 May 2015

STICK'N'POKE

I was kinda tipsy the other day when i decided to order some tattoo needles and ink. Mostly because of Odinn, friend of my flatmate who is staying with us for a week. He does that and i liked it. Desperately wanted to try it too. So, as easy as it was, ordered all the neccessities from amazon and waited. It arrived today, so after eating pancakes for breakfast, drinking beer and a bit of vodka, we got into it. My first one was done by Odinn, It is a simple circle on my ankle. This spot hurt like shit though. It turned out very beautiful, my favourite tattoo on me so far. You know, there is this thing about stick'n'poke, it is much more important by whom it is done and it is so much more personal too. You gotta keep it simple, Obviously. SO the next one done by me on me is a simple shape of almost triangle. > like this, only on my arm, pointing down. It is a mountain to be climbed. It is memories. It is simplicity at its best. Love it. So if you wanna a free tattoo, let me know.




Monday 25 May 2015

Head above

As i am writing this post i am drunk on wine and stoned. It is great though. So many things happened i cannot or do not want to really talk about because it is not sure yet, if they will really work out. I feel great though. Met my friends and new people, got drunk with islanidc people /never doing that again though/. Danced a lot, got stoned and other drugs-wise high, drunk. Went to see Astronautalis, got a tattoo idea on my arm drawn by him. Went to K.Flay gig. It was great. Smoked way too much. Slept just a little. Everything feels just about right though, gotta admit and appreciate that. Berlin is great people, i am telling you.




Wednesday 6 May 2015

Bits and bops


My phone broke down. It was just a question of time, to be honest. It sucks anyway. So the only pictures are from my webcam, since I cannot find my camera. Hehe. Deal with it, folks. So yea, this is me rocking my new Topshop clothes and later on, new hair. 
Do you like it?




Monday 4 May 2015

Don't tell my mom!


Yeah, I did it again. No regrets tho. Another breakup, another tattoo, right? It's so beautiful and meaningful to me. Cassiopeia between my freckles. Stars, universe, infinity. 
LOVE IT.


Sunday 12 April 2015

10 cool things about being single

Since I have been single for more than two months now, I gathered some benefits of being on your own:

1) You can look like a mess all.the.time. Really, no make-up days become a serious part of your life, cause your flatmates know how you look in the morning and noone else cares.
2) You can smoke, drink, do drugs because there is noone around who would tell you how bad it is for you, except for your mum obviously. But she doesn't live with you, does she?
3) Your room can look like a mess too, cause only you live in there.
4) You do not have to shave! Yay.
5) You do not have to explain where have you been all evening.
6) You can enjoy all the free drinks dudes at bars get you. 
7) Flirtung. Nuff said.
8) You have more time for yourself so you can indulge in the activities you have always wanted to do but never had time for. Like skating, haha. Or studying. And you take a lot more care of yourself too, Lush shopping is your new cardio.
9) You do not have to tell someone where you are going, who are you gonna meet. You can be spontanious.
10) You are free as you have never been.



Saturday 11 April 2015

Smallminded small minds

Do you know that feeling when you are having a really shitty day and in the evening, everything gets even worse because basically you fuck up everything there is to fuck up. And you break a glass and start crying and cry and cry for no reason at all. And suddenly you keep remembering all the sad ťstuff in your life, so you keep crying even more. And you make people angry and you think noone seems to really understand you. Because people really do not, and they do not want to either. Well. This was my night yesterday, fucked up in every single way. But I think it is important to have a breakdown every now and then in a while. Because it helps you realize things. And now I feel different about certain people and certain things. I also have the feeling I am missing on so many things that are going on right now, I hate the feeling of bein über-informated, you know. It's inevitable in the 21st century, but it still drives me like super crazy. I mean, there are so so many things going on - how can one possibly know what really is important and what not. Everything seems really inportant to me, I mean, almost everything that has some media coverage. I just don't know, am I weird or do you sometimes feel this way too? Meh. Let me know, that would be cool.