Enchanted To Meet You

     I figured that when I had this epiphany to resurrect my blog, I shall also go ahead and re-introduce myself. Introduce myself in the first place, technically speaking. I was a teenager when I started this blog. Now I am almost 29. /29!/ and all I can think of right now is Schmidt in New Girl and his 29th birthday celebration and how I've always joked once I turn 29 I am going to be annoyingly saying twenty-nine in Schmidt's voice the whole night.
    Well maybe it is not the only thing that I can think of, but you get what I mean. If you were to tell my 15 year old self who passionately but very awkwardly started this blog, that 14 years later I am going to be back and not let this little (visual) diary go to the interwebz garbage, she'd probably be pretty amazed. And curious, obviously. Curious about how I've turned out to be as a proper adult. Because quite honestly, I do feel like one. I think I've been feeling like one ever since I got my own place. Rented, of course. But my own little sanctuary.
    It't a nice and comforting thought. I was trying so hard back then, trying and mostly suceeding but not always. And I don't know why I've always had this urge to put myself out there but I think it's kind of nice to have something to look back later on (how nostalgic, I know).
    Fourteen years is a damn long time, so I will spare you the details. At this point, I just want to express how nice it is to be alive. Not to just exist, but to actually live. To focus on the present moment and just be. This is somethig I've struggled with for the longest time, either being trapped in the past or hopeful / anxious about the future. Now I am just grateful, truly grateful.
    And so I am here, sitting on the couch in my kitchen, with a lit incense and Fata&Morgana set playing, reflecting on the past decade and a half. 
    I feel like I am still the same, in my core but so many things have changed - I mean of course they did, if they did not that'd be quite sad - and I welcomed the change with open arms. And learned to embrace it and learn from it. 
    It's quite funny though, all these silly little moments in life and all the people I've met and just, you know, life is pretty nice. Complicated, but nice. What I am trying to convey is the fact that in a way to come back to this virtual space is a full circle moment for me. I feel like I've never in my life been more myself than I am now, comfortable in my own skin but also character- and value-wise.
    The cool thing is, I can just be myself because I no longer care much about how I come across, or if I said something embarrasing. Or acted in a weird way. 
    Additonally, I am no longer trying to fit in, to impress, well at least not most of the time. And I am dealing with things properly and not running away from problems and overall I mean of course we develop and we get older but the sheer difference between all of my past versions and my current version is just astonishing to me in a way.
    I guess I am just a girl, I am a girls' girl and maybe I just think a little too much and notice a little too detailed but it does not change the fact that I am also a woman and I know my mental power and listen carefully.
    I am in a position in my life where I am really content in pretty much all of its areas. And that is a very reassuring thought. And in case I am not, I am changing something about the situation. Which gives me confidence in myself. 
    So on that note, welcome to my humble home. I hope you have fun.

    

Durstlöscher Combos That Slap

    I am your self-proclaimed Durstlöscher connoisseur and therefore I am in a position to teach you all which combinations of Durstlöscher and [add anything here] simply slap. 
    Through my years of thorough research, I've not only come to the conclusion that Durstlöscher is very versatile, but I as well found out that some combinations slap harder than others.
    The world of taste is your oyster, quite frankly.   

    But to be a proper blogger, you'll first have to read about my Durstlöscher history. It's been complicated but we're an inseparable couple now.
    I remember I never understood the hype around it - I mean of course, it's mostly pretty cheap and once you are proper thirsty, it does the job. BUT, I did one big mistake and that is why our relationship was off to a bad start and later on I'd even call it a love-hate relationship.
    I simply drank it too fast. And yes, it is pretty confusing because every Dursti contains 500ml of liquid. Well, I drank and drank and drank and then it was empty within minutes. Then I got this really bad belly ache and my stomach was no longer a stomach, but an aquarium.
    According to my past experience and knowing I am the toxic one in the relationship, I learned. I learned from my mistake. And I started enjoying Dursti in a timely manner but not too fast. Back then, it still used to have the plastic straws, so sipping on it patiently was not a problem at all. Nowadays it became an issue because of the paper straws, obviously. (No shade here, I too want that tortoises live a long life without plastic straws up their noses but you know, the nostalgic feeling is real.)

    And so since I've acknowledged my mistake and changed the way I was consuming this heavenly drink, I realized there is so much more to it, than to solely erase your thirst.
    The rest is history.

    So, as promised, here are some of the combinations that are in my humble opinion the best:

1. DURSTLÖSCHER PFIRSICH EISTEE + DOOBIE
2. DURSTLÖSCHER GRANATAPFEL und ZITRONE + SOUR CANDY

3. DURSTLÖSCHER MULTIVITAMIN + BREAKFAST
4. DURSTLÖSCHER APFEL und ORANGE und ZITRONE + SOAR THROAT

5. DURSTLÖSCHER ORANGE + CHOCOLATE (dark is the best in this case)
6. DURSTLÖSCHER TROPICAL + HARIBO CANDIES (Picco balla the best, but any would do the job)
7. DURSTLÖSCHER MYSTERY + ALSO A DOOBIE
8. DURSTLÖSCHER BUBBLEGUM is honestly too overpowering but + HUBBA BUBBA chewing gum

9. DURSTLÖSCHER WALDMEISTER + I don't vibe with this one, I could never pair it with anything
10. DURSTLÖSCHER WASSERMELONE + ICE LOLLIES
11. DURSTLÖSCHER SAUERKIRSCHE und ZITRONE + WAFFLES
12. DURSTLÖSCHER ZITRONE EISTEE + FALAFEL SANDWICH
13. DURSTLÖSCHER BLUEBERRY MARSHMALLOW + (you've guessed it) marshmallows
14. DURSTLÖSCHER MANGO EISTEE + SMOOTHIE BOWL

LET ME KNOW WHAT ARE YOUR FAVS <3

random

I have met a lot of different people throughout my life. Some of them I barely noticed, some of them I will never forget. 
You know, they say that whenever you get to know someone new, he or she is going to teach you something new. Something you have not been able to do before. Or something you did not know before. I have to admit it has been more than true in my lifeso far. 
It is kind of odd - I mean, isn't it a mere coincidence after all? Like whom do you get to know properly and who just passes by in your life and then disappears forever without even having a chance to lead a real conversation. 

And how come we are attracted both mentally and physically just to certain people? I understand, there is probably not enough time to get to know everyone who walks into your life properly, yet still, why?
I have to say, I do not really understand the science behind it. 
Is it synchronicity? Were we at the same time in the same place? Isn't that more of a coincidence though? And if so, is there still some strange power guiding us towards each other, besides it being an accordance?
I honestly have no idea.

But I know how it feels. How it feels like when you just meet someone completely new, a stranger better to say, and you know right away this person is special. That there is something about him or her you want to get to know closer. Like there is a treasure burried inside them that you want to discover.
So you take the risk and decide to speak to them and suddenly you are best friends or lovers or soulmates, experiencing the same shit in your life at the very particular moment. 
Isn't it just suspicious? Who directs us together? And why?
Are we choosing our paths ourselves or is it path of our own fate that is guiding us?
Is there any chance we can trick or fool fate? Is it really all the little decisions we make during the day that eventually bring us together?
Is it possible, to find out?

I am not sure. We can suppose, suggest, believe, try to explain .. But we will never be able to understand this occurance properly. We will never be sure what is the cause of all this. We can only speculate because we know the effects. Everyone knows them; This weird exciting feeling you get when you see someone like that. And I am not talking love or sexual attraction only, this could apply to any kind of relationship we have in our lives.

Is it really destiny, are we already destined to experience certain things with certain poeple before we even know?

This has been simply bothering for some time now. I have been thinking about everything a lot lately. I have a lot of stressful things going on in my life at the moment. But not only stressful in bad way, there are plenty thigs that are stressing me for the good too.
After all, isn't everything eventually for the good only? I mean, often when I look back at some things that happened to me a few years ago which I thought were the worst things ever, it has always been for the good in the end. I just did not see it right away. I was not able to do so. But I am capable of seeing it now and I have to say, everything shitty has been for the good in my life so far.
It has been lessons I have learned, which I am never going to forget. 
It might have been uneasy back then but it made me the person I am now. It made me stronger, wiser and more experienced, of course. 
Everybody always has to figure out him or herself. There is nothing like tutorial to the least complicated happy life. No such a thing. 
And it is alright, that there is nothing like that.

8th & 9th

I was about to do a tattoo on a girl but unfortunately it did not work out, so I did two on myself instead. 

A little rectangle, which is bolder on one side and an X on my ankle standing for X-BRG, of course. 

I enjoy the simplicity of stick'n'pokes a lot. Maybe way too much, hehe, so far I have done 7 small/tiny tattoos on myself. Well .. the temptation is real, I am telling you. 

Wanna get a pineapple but not sure where though. 

Anyway, have a nice weekend! I am working today, but only till 2pm, which is alright :)

TOUCH FIRE

Hey guys! 
News from Berlin are coming, haha. I have my two bestest friends staying over half of the summer, so my room is kinda really crowded now but I like it, because they are fun and cute and cook food and even do the dishes. Wouldn't you just love them too? I do. Hehe.
In other news, doing a lot of stick and pokes lately, met a bunch of cool people thanks to that too.
Got a cool new job at a start-up company, super nice co-workers and free foood! Do you believe that? I do not.
Anyway, life is pretty much cool beanzz again, so I hope it will last a little!
Have a great week!